Amour and Puppy Love

vitruvian_man-001Here is a maxim to live by: Never watch a depressing French film with a puppy.

My friend Chuck raved about Amour. It won lots of awards. I decided to set aside my distaste for subtitles and watch it.

My son has a black lab puppy, Baxter, three months old.  He was going to a wedding and needed someone to watch the pup. My first opportunity to be a grandparent.

Andy arrived on a hot July afternoon laden down like any new parent. Baxter had a crate, a blanket cover, a tin of food, a packet of treats, a leash and a toy.  Andy set him up in the basement, where its cool. The puppy eyed his master with love and longing as he exited.  Then Baxter gave me a dismissive glance and oozed his furry body over the cool concrete.

imgres-1Three hours later I took Baxter for a walk.  He was fine with the idea, except I forgot to bring the treats he is supposed to get as a reward every time he goes to the bathroom outside.  He peed, moved to the side, sat obediently and looked to me for his treat.  When none was forthcoming, he gave me a dismissive look and moved only when I tugged his collar.  More disgust when he successfully pooped. He liked the spray fountain in the park, but it hardly compensated for my lack of treats.

After our walk I put Baxter in his crate and went to yoga.  When I returned we took another walk – this time with treats.  His attitude was much improved.  Afterward I gave him dinner and became his BFF.

I turned on Amour but there was no turning off Baxter.  He was no longer content to chill in the basement. He had to be with me.  He raced around the den during Emmanuelle Riva’s initial stroke, struggled to climb on the sofa when she returned from the hospital, succeeded in getting onto the cushions as she mastered her electric wheelchair, chewed on my sandals when she was getting her diaper changed, licked my ears while Isabelle Huppert fought with Jean-Louis Trintignant, and flopped his hot and sweaty belly over my lap when the old man finally smothered his deteriorating wife. Puppies lack gravitas.

imgresAlthough it is hardly fair to pen a critique of anything more serious than Turner and Hooch with a puppy cavorting during a film, Amour made two impressions on me. First, I loved their apartment. So did the director, whose lingering stills of the quiet rooms and the severe art made the sumptuous, Parisian living space an integral character.  Second, I realized the importance of a movie title. Amour. We know, going in, that they love each other. Imagine if the movie had been called Smothered, which is actually what happens.  No awards for that movie. Nada.

When I put Baxter back in his create he whimpered, sorry to see me go. A few treats and a bowl of dry food were all it took. Baxter loves me for life.  Dogs are so much easier than people.

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Which Would You Prefer – Sit Still or Experience a Shock?

awkward_pose_3-001This is a reposted blog essay from on of my favorite bloggers: yogibattle.

Here is some disturbing news from the Western front: many people can barely tolerate to be alone with themselves. At least those were the findings in a series of research studies done by Harvard and the University of Virginia. In one case, subjects had preferred to give themselves an electric shock break to tolerate the silence of having to sit for 15 minutes without any form of stimulation.

Should this be alarming? Some may argue that this is the consequence of the electronic age. Even I have a hard time not checking my WordPress stats a few free moments in the day. But on a deeper level, this means that many people are going the exact opposite direction to knowing their true selves, which is the lofty aspiration set out in the Pantanjali Yoga Sutras.

sittting-in-painFirst we must ask what the value is in sitting alone without interruption. Most of my regular readers would gasp at that question, but for the lay person in the Western world, this is a perplexing question. As a yoga teacher, I have to “sell” the idea that sitting for prolonged periods is the only way one can get to “know” themselves truly.

Yoga practice cultivates not only the ability to be alone with yourself for prolonged periods, it makes it so you have a hard time tolerating that which keeps you away from that silence, then transcends that “intolerance” into being peaceful and silent inside no matter what the world throws at you.

screen-shot-2014-07-07-at-3-31-53-pmMy mentoring teacher took this picture during her last trip to India. She said this man sits here daily for hours on end and “disappears” into the bench. This man has not only embraced his silence, he may have even attained the Siddhi of turning himself invisible!

 

 

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Our Shrinking Engineering Legacy

usa-001This essay was published in WBUR Cognoscenti on July 2, 2014.

I took a walk with a friend through Mount Auburn Cemetery in Cambridge, Mass., last weekend to enjoy summer’s long days and pleasant weather. Some of the cemetery’s most striking features are directly descended from retreating glaciers: Consecration Dell is a kettle pond; Indian Ridge Path follows an eskar; and Tower Hill is a kame. The picturesque hills, the mammoth specimen trees, winding paths, manicured gardens and ornately carved stones look like they’ve been there forever. But they haven’t. The cemetery’s landscape was embellished by extensive earthwork and ambitious plantings to create a nineteenth century vision of perfect harmony between nature and man. A vision engineered to look like eternity.

When we climbed Washington Tower to take in the view, our first impression was Boston as a city of trees. Except for the high-rise spine that stretches from the Financial District through Back Bay – a man-made esker, if you will – the view from a few hundred feet up is of undulating green, punctuated by steeples and the occasional tall building. Like the cemetery itself, the tree canopy gives a naturalistic veneer to a heavily engineered landscape. IMG_0731

From Washington Tower’s vantage, Boston’s main attributes appear fixed. The Charles River winds between clear banks, with highways and structures on both sides. The infrastructure of our city, however, is more complex than that ordered image appears. Much of Boston was indeterminate tidal marsh that our forebears shaped into dry land and discreet water paths. They filled in the Back Bay with gravel imported from Needham. Eventually, they solidified the South End and the land where the MIT campus stands, as well. With certainty of purpose, they crafted the face of the city.

Civil Engineering – creating the land, water and transit ways that define Boston today – reached its heyday in the nineteenth century, when our desire to reshape the environment was at last matched by our ability to do so. Major construction was not limited to pyramids and palaces; we shaped the neighborhoods where everyday people lived.

Today, our visions are less grand. Perhaps it’s because our processes of construction are more complicated; we have more regulations, more input by neighbors and more environmental concerns. Perhaps it is because, having moved so much earth, there is no joy in moving any more. Probably, it is the logical evolution of a more complex society that yearns for new challenges.

Grand projects are still feasible, but their rewards seem less inspiring. Boston’s Big Dig was on scale with filling in the Back Bay. Instead of building a railroad and leveling gravel hills in Needham, we built the Haul Road and expanded Spectacle Island with the earth we removed. Building a highway beneath the city was more technologically complex than filling Back Bay, but it lacked equivalent civic pizzazz.  The Zakim Bridge, the Big Dig’s sole landmark, is visible from Mount Auburn Cemetery’s Washington Tower, but it’s not as majestic as the sweep of Back Bay.

When my friend and I descended the tower, I felt tiny in the shadows of former engineering triumphs. I realized that two hundred years from now, Boston will look different than it does today, but not so different than it looked two hundred years ago. The fundamental engineering moves that define our city are in place.IMG_0733

As we wandered, our conversation wandered as well, from the latest apps on our iPhones and starting a new website, to a friend’s minimally invasive brain surgery and Skyping with overseas coworkers. Our ramblings made me realize that contemporary engineering wonders occupy a different scale from civil engineering. We transform our world with tiny things. When we bounce electrons into space, we bypass the need for roads or railways. We don’t have to climb a tower to appreciate today’s engineering because it fits in our hand. Our pocket wonders have reshaped daily life, but ubiquity renders them ordinary. It’s hard to find magic in something that is everywhere.

A climb to the top of Washington Tower made me pause and consider the audacity and gumption that shaped our city. We deserve an equivalent burst of awe when a doctor threads a scope through our arteries, when we see a face we love from the other side of the globe appear live on a screen, even when the web leads us to a terrific Mexican joint in an unfamiliar neighborhood. But our electronic marvels don’t deliver an inspirational spike on a summer afternoon walk. Our ancestors’ legacy surrounds us in steel and stone. Our legacy ricochets, invisible, through cyberspace.

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Free Stuff – It’s Moving Season

usa-001I am sitting in my study on a warm summer Saturday afternoon.  My third floor tenant is moving out.  I have offered to help, but he’s a big guy, as is his boyfriend, so they’ve got it covered. They load the basics into a U-Haul, drive it off to their new place, then return and unload miscellaneous items on the sidewalk. A pair of white chairs, a microwave, an air conditioner, a few fans.  They put signs saying the items are free, and that they work.

I decide I could use the white chairs in my bedroom, since my old rocker has had a broken cane seat for going on ten years.  By the time I make my way downstairs and out front, a Volkswagen has parked and a couple has claimed the chairs. No matter, I take a fan.  An extra fan is always handy.

IMG_0772By the time I return to my study, my tenant has added more stuff to the sidewalk. An end table, a few lamps, two bookcases.  I decide the floor lamp could replace the broken one in my bedroom.  My bedroom has become the repository for broken household goods.  In a big house there is no need to get rid of broken things, and since I hate to shop, only essentials are replaced. Since I never actually sit in my bedroom, a broken rocker and lamp hardly matter.

I get to the sidewalk in time to claim the floor lamp. It looks great in my room. I throw the broken one out.

IMG_0773Back in my study I watch the steady stream of pedestrians and cars that stop, analyze, and tote treasures away.  The bookcases go fast, but the microwave has no takers. Some things, even when free, are not worth the responsibility of transport and redistribution. As for the lamp with the feather shade?  It might get snatched up in a second in the South End, but here in Cambridge, it gets passed over time and again.

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Route 6A Brewster

0009997_Haiti_Diagram_Paul_Fallon_101103Bicycling to Cape Cod is becoming an annual tradition. This week I rode to Eastham to visit Jan and Mike Golan, pedaled to Falmouth to see my son, and then returned to Cambridge.   Cape Cod Baseball League game each night, and gigantic meals to refuel from 230 miles in three days.

On the first afternoon I took a photo shoot along a five mile stretch of Route 6A in Brewster.  For anyone who isn’t blessed with spending a glorious day on Cape Cod, here is a glimpse of the random beauty I encountered in one short stretch of my journey.

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A Traditional Cape

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Distant view of the marsh

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Farmer’s MarketIMG_0750

Batik skirts at the marketIMG_0748

Windmill in a fieldIMG_0751

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Creek through a marshIMG_0754

Lion Tchotchkes and convertibleIMG_0757

Brewster Senior Center with War MemorialsIMG_0765

Bushes in BloomIMG_0763

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Cape Coe Rail Train TunnelIMG_0766

Cape Cod rail Trail leading to Eastham

 

 

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Tata Hall

usa-001Harvard Business School occupies a majestic bend on the Boston side of the Charles River. McKim Mead and White designed the original Georgian campus in the 1920’s, with landscape design by Frederick Law Olmstead. The twelve buildings organized around courtyards and centered on Baker Library are a fit reflection of Harvard University’s campus directly across the river.

It took several decades for HBS to outgrow its core campus. As it expanded, some of Boston’s best architect’s created undistinguished work on prime sites. From Shepley Bulfinch’s 1970 McCullum Center to Ben Thompson’s 1976 Soldier’s Field Park, to CBT’s 1999 MacArthur Hall to Machado Silvetti’s 2003 One Western Avenue, Harvard lined the riverfront with buildings that were ordinary in concept and execution, did little to enhance the quality of the campus and nothing to connect to the river. Although One Western Avenue suffered blistering criticism when it opened, I find MacArthur Hall the most offensive of the bunch.  There is a limit to how tall a building can be, how applied it’s sloped roofs, and how massive it’s fake chimneys and still be called Georgian.  MacArthur exceeds all measures on all counts.

Screen Shot 2014-06-18 at 10.27.58 AMThankfully, now there is Tata Hall, the final building along the river between the original HBS campus and Western Avenue. William Rawn Associates is a consistently good design firm; at Tata they are great. First, the building is beautiful; the proportions, the materials, the scale and the graceful curve. Second, it relates to the river. As the river curves one way, so the building curves in response, creating a front lawn that both belongs to this particular building but also relates to the entire riverbank. Third, Tata is generous enough to help its less fortunate neighbors. Tata’s defining curve obscures MacArthur on one side and Soldier’s Field Park on the other.  Not in a brusque way, but in a manner that says, “you guys are background buildings and can settle in behind me.”tata river fallon

Tata does not only pay attention to the river.  The HBS campus entrance respects and enhances its neighbors. Tata’s large two-story flow-through glass lobby is on axis with the massive symmetrical face of Kresge Hall. Kresge seems more connected to the river now than it did with an empty site in front of it.  That situation will change as Kresge is in the throes of demolition to make way for Goody Clancy’s new Chao Center.  Let’s hope that the interplay with the two new buildings is as successful.

tata entry fallonI must admit that the intersection details of the three wings and undulating entrance seem overly complicated; maintaining the sweep of the river facade on the campus side would have created cleaner massing and a more noble entrance. But on the scale of this buildings success, that is a quibble.

More than thirty years ago, Bill Rawn and I were in graduate school together.  I was a competent, often talented student. Bill was an inspired designer. For three decades I have enjoyed living and working among more and more of his completed work. Now, I enjoy Tata Hall whenever I travel the river. HBS, and all of Boston, is better for his effort.

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Long June Days

usa-001Memories pile steep this time of year. The sun hangs in the sky for more than fifteen hours. More years rest within the vaults of my mind than will span future horizons. Long June days remind me of Minnie Diver, an 83 year old woman from Floydada, Texas I met in June 1977. Minnie helped me appreciate the beauty of long days and cautioned against drinking them in too fast.

I met Minnie briefly during our week of VISTA Volunteer training in San Antonio.  But there seemed no reason to spend time with the oldest volunteer in our 150-person cohort. I was too busy hanging with my roommate Bob, from Walla Walla Washington; Tracy, who tied T-shirts into a midriff exposing knot; and Terry, a San Antonio native who snuck us out to nightspots and provided a reverent tour of the Alamo.  Minnie was assigned to my South Plains work site; I would have time for her later.

That time came on our first day of orientation in Levelland. The schedule included an early lunchtime picnic in the park. A few metal tables sitting under corrugated roof sheds. Barbeque chicken whose sauce stuck to my fingers. Mayonnaise-based salads that stuck to my belly. A hot, dry breeze that stung my cheeks yet barely managed to shift the stubbly brown grass.

When she was finished eating almost nothing, Minnie licked each fingertip, daubed it with a paper towel, stood up and looked west. Her features expressed the resolute dignity of a Willa Cather heroine. Her skin was fair despite a lifetime facing into the Texas wind. Her snowy hair fine as the cirrus clouds that vainly tried to shroud the gigantic blue-sky dome.  Her white shirtwaist dress puckered at her shrunken breast, cinched her narrow waist, and fell in aimless pleats.

The sun sizzled the tin over our heads.  Her eyes scanned the edge of the world, where ten more hours of daylight beckoned. “You have to brace yourself on these long June days.  It can be trial to maintain your strength.”

Minnie’s words drew my eyes in the same direction.  I saw the South Plains for the first time when my eyes paralleled her own. There’s nothing there, just flat land and sky.  Everything is there, flat land and sky. I felt the strength, possibility, and weariness, in so much expanse.

I had always considered long days an unconditional gift, payback for too dark winter.  But Minnie had witnessed the season’s pass four times more often than me. She knew that every day, long or short, carried blessings and catastrophe within the sweeping sun and the shifting stars. Her words made me ponder, for the first time, that a life of action might be well tempered by passages of observation and reflection.

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Cotton fields in the South Plains of Texas

 

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Wishing me Gone

0009997_Haiti_Diagram_Paul_Fallon_101103Cambridge is a great bicycle city. We have more bicycle lanes per square mile than neighboring communities. We have protected cycling lanes, Hubway bike stations, designated parking areas, public repair stations, even a bicycle jug handle in Harvard Square.  I remain alert when cycling in Cambridge, but I don’t fear the sharp cutoffs I’ve experienced in Quincy or Everett, or the confusion created at some of Boston’s amorphously marked intersections.

In a city with more bicycles than people, where nearly 10% of us bike to work, cyclists are pretty much accepted.  Except when we’re not.

The first interchange I encounter every morning is a T-shaped affair with carefully controlled lights two blocks from my house.  I am scrupulous in attending to the system, yet I still get honked at least once a week. Getting beeped is an unpleasant way to start the day, so I’ve tried to figure out what’s amiss.

Here’s the layout. The bike lane on Huron Avenue eastbound disintegrates approaching Aberdeen Avenue to create a right turn lane for cars. If the arrow is green to continue straight, I have to move to the left side of the cars waiting for their right signal (no right on red in pedestrian friendly Cambridge). The cars going straight don’t like me in their lane, and so they beep their horns.  If I approach the intersection and the right turn lane has a green arrow, I stop until the straight arrow signal comes round.  I stay just right of cars that want to go straight, but drivers making the turn honk despite the fact that I’ve allowed plenty of space for them to turn.  The third condition, westbound vehicles turning left onto Aberdeen, requires everyone in my direction to stop. I position myself between the cars going straight and those turning right. This seems to aggravate everyone.

imgresThe other day, as an SUV honked at me while making a right turn, I finally realized where the drivers want me to be at this intersection. Just like the bike lane itself, they want me to disappear. Before bicycles became ubiquitous, cars and trucks had the entire road to themselves. Why should they have to share their big machines with my puny one?

Even in a city as bike friendly as Cambridge, many motorists just want us gone.  Fortunately, time, health, and energy are on our side. Bicycles are here to stay. Most cyclists are trying to find the best way to share the road with our gasoline-powered companions.  Honking won’t make us go away, and doesn’t help us get along either.

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Haiti Update

haiti-001Many readers of The Awkward Pose became followers during my period of working in Haiti.  It has been months since I wrote about Haiti, so here is some news:

 

 

IMG_00341. Mission of Hope school is up and running. They have completed their grant requirements to A Heart for Children, the group that gave them the majority of the funds for the school.  This is good news because, having successfully completed one major grant, we are all set to apply for – and receive – more.  MoHI wants to finish the next phase of the school and community space, and buy property next door for a trade school and soccer field.  I am itching to get down there and build those 54-foot long trusses.

20C BLB Front2. Be Like Brit is up and running.  The orphanage is now the center of a much larger operation.  Regular volunteer groups from the U.S stay there and participate in service projects throughout Grand Goave. I’m working on renovating a warehouse in Worcester for their Operations Center.  BLB has four stateside employees and processes thousands of donated goods.

15_ Dieunison and Dieurie3. My special buddy, Dieunison, turned twelve in May.  He’s almost twice as tall as when I met him four years ago, lives with his older brother Dieurie, and they are both progressing through Mission of Hope’s school.  Despite the distance and language barriers, whenever we Skype Dieunison cracks me up.

Untitled 34. I’ve started working on an OR/ED pavilion for Saint Boniface Hospital in Fond des Blancs. St. Boniface serves the entire southern peninsula; children from MoHI and BLB go there for major medical needs. This beneficial healthcare resource needs a pair of current standard operating rooms and a suitable place to accept and treat trauma victims.  We’ve made an application to USAID for funding. If all goes well, we might be able to start construction this fall.

ProductImageHandler5. I don’t have an trips planned to Haiti at present, but will be spending time this fall and winter promoting my book, Architecture by Moonlight, which will be available on or before October 31, 2014.  More about that as publication comes near.

 

 

 

It seems I can never quite get away from Haiti.

Which is good, since I would never want to.

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One Breath to One Movement

awkward_pose_3-001Sequencing is the term we use for the series of yoga poses that we put together to create a coherent class. Like most things in this world, sequencing is something I never thought about until I had to do it, and then its complexity confounded me. There are teachers, organic yogi’s, who do not prepare sequences in advance.  They sense the studio aura and string together poses that feel intrinsically pure.

That’s not my style.  I have a matrix where I track specific poses with relevant breath and holding times. Yoga eschews terminology like ‘rules’ but there are five guidelines to creating asana sequences.

1. Move from one pose to another by changing one body plane at a time. Rising and twisting simultaneously is confusing.

2. Inhale on postures that open our bodies, exhale on postures that close it down.

3. Always cue key inhale breaths, and then cue corresponding exhales so students know when to release energy.

4. Maintain an even rate of inhale and exhale throughout each portion of class. Breath may be faster during core work and slower during relaxation, but keep it consistent within a section.

5. Cue every breath in vinyasa flow.

Flow is what differentiates vinyasa yoga from other forms. It is moving at a steady pace, one breath to one movement.  Flow links the third limb of the yoga path (asana, or poses) and the fourth limb (pranyama, or breath). In a good flow, the poses and the breath reinforce and build upon each other, resulting in deeper poses, stronger breath, and heightened mindfulness. Vinyasa flow is a cycle of moving up and out (inhale), followed by in and down (exhale) over and over again.

Most postures have a traditional inhale or exhale association. Mountain pose (Tadasana), standing tall with arms overhead, is always an inhale; while Standing Forward Fold (Ukatasana), bending your torso over your thighs and touching the mat, is always an exhale.

Some postures alternate.  If you come up to Warrior II from a Low Lunge, it’s an inhale. If you come down to Warrior II from Triangle, it’s an exhale. Whether you are opening up or closing down depends on where you’ve been.

Last week I took back-to-back classes that demonstrated – by omission – the challenge of maintaining one breath to one movement, and how wrong things can go if the general guidelines are thwarted. In the first class the Sun B flow was straightforward.  Inhale, Crescent Lunge. Exhale, Warrior II. Inhale, Reverse Triangle. Exhale, Triangle. Inhale Warrior II. Exhale, Extended Side Angle. Inhale, Reverse Warrior.  Exhale, Warrior II, Inhale, Breath. Exhale, Chaturanga. It looks great on paper.  But when you get to ‘inhale, breath’, you don’t move. You only breathe. Each time I had to put the brakes on my flow to stay with the breath.

No need for brakes in the next class. The teacher had a movement for every breath. Problem was, sometimes more than one movement. At one point she cued, “Inhale, One-legged Tadasana. Exhale, Figure Four.  Inhale, Revolved Figure Four.  Exhale, Standing Forward Fold. Whoa!  In one breath I was supposed to untwist my arms and torso, unhinge my bent leg, put my legs together, get my hips straight in the air and get my hands to the mat. Five separate actions. There weren’t five discrete movements, because multiple movements in the same plane can occur at the same time. But the cue required moving in two planes simultaneously. I needed to untwist my body to the coronal plane and then bend over in the sagittal plane.

Since Revolved Figure Four was an inhale, and Standing Forward Fold is always an exhale, the teacher tried to get us there in one move, when three moves would have been more understandable. For example, “Inhale, Revolved Figure Four, Exhale, Untwist to Figure Four. Inhale, Chair Pose. Exhale, Standing Forward Fold.” That would have gotten everyone where we wanted to be with good fluidity and form.

One breath to one movement.

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