Tough Yoga

awkward_pose_3-001The line between success and failure can be fine, but once we trip over it, we cannot always raise ourselves to the other side.  I knew an evening class would be grueling, but I thought it doable.  I had been away for the weekend, driving up the East Coast on a workday Monday was stressful, but we pulled into the driveway at 5:40 pm and if I hustled I could make the 6:00 pm in Harvard Square.  I know the Bikram yoga class times like others know train schedules. I raced into the studio with two minutes to spare, changed into my yoga shorts and took a spot toward the back.

For the next ninety minutes everything went wrong.  I was too full from lunch, the room was too hot, too humid; I could not focus my mind.  I stretched though half moon and awkward pose, but got dizzy on eagle.  I fell out of standing head to knee, twice, and by the time we got to dancer pose I was standing in a shallow pool of my own sweat. Each pose got feebler until I took a knee at triangle. I tried to navigate head to knee but by the first sabasana I was finished.  Midway through the spine series I left the room – a Bikram failure.

I am suffering yoga block.  In the past month I’ve sat out more poses than I have in over 900 classes; twice I’ve had to leave the room. Some days the humidity feels like a choke hold around my neck.  I still have great days when I leave class limber and energized, but a weariness plagues me.  I am committed to completing my 1000 class mark, but I wonder if perhaps I need a breather, something lighter, some cooler air in my quest for fitness and mental clarity.

About paulefallon

Greetings reader. I am a writer, architect, cyclist and father from Cambridge, MA. My primary blog, is an archive of all my published writing. The title refers to a sequence of three yoga positions that increase focus and build strength by shifting the body’s center of gravity. The objective is balance without stability. My writing addresses opposing tension in our world, and my attempt to find balance through understanding that opposition. During 2015-2106 I am cycling through all 48 mainland United States and asking the question "How will we live tomorrow?" That journey is chronicled in a dedicated blog,, that includes personal writing related to my adventure as well as others' responses to my question. Thank you for visiting.
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3 Responses to Tough Yoga

  1. Pat says:

    That heat can be a killer! Maybe your blood sugar was off too.

  2. Hal Seifert says:

    Listen to your body and take a break.

  3. JOE GAKNE says:

    knowing you, you need to do things with integrity – if you can’t participate up to your standard, you won’t be happy meeting a milestone; maybe a break would give you a fresh start

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