Looking for Health in Las Vegas

The Center for Health Design is a non-profit group out of California that advocates for creating healthcare environments that are patient and family-centered and utilize evidence-based design, meaning that design decisions are backed by documented environmental research. As an organization it is a microcosm of our healthcare system- well intentioned, fixated on ‘high end’ trappings of the business, and ultimately missing the point.

The Center for Health Design has done some great stuff. They have been instrumental in making private patient rooms a regulatory requirement by supporting research that demonstrates patients in private rooms have better outcomes under many measures.  They support research that correlates reduced patient stress with improved clinical communication and the benefits of bringing nature into the healing environment.  The Center for Health Design is literally a breath of fresh air after the technology obsessed 1960’s and 1970’s that bequeathed us gigantic windowless hospitals of endless beige corridors where patients shuttle from device to device.

The Center for Health Design makes things better, but it also makes things more expensive.  In a new hospital today, private rooms and other family centered features push the size of inpatient units to over 800 square feet per bed.(it was in the 500-600 square foot range).  Due to patient privacy and family accommodations, the spaces patients occupy before and after their procedures in new surgical suites now equal or exceed the amount of space dedicated to the operating rooms themselves. Hospitals have grand piano players in their lobbies, patient rooms so large that families require their own TV’s, and project costs that can exceed $1000 per square foot.

Every year The Center for Health Design holds a conference filled with impressive seminars on how firms are creating these fabulous environments, networking opportunities galore, and an exhibition hall where manufacturers of healthcare products trot out their latest wares.  Healthcare spending now surpasses 17% of our Gross National Product, and with our aging population, the 20% mark is not far off.  Wandering the exhibit halls of Healthcare Design ’10, I wondered if perhaps the Military Industrial Complex had finally met its match in the Healthcare Industrial Complex.

If you are rich the American healthcare system is likely the preferred choice in the world. If you are middle class with the benefit of insurance you can have access to incredible technology as long as you are willing to do battle with the insurers whose first response to almost any claim is ‘denied’.  If you are very poor you can receive consistent care as long as you are willing to suffer the indignity we bestow on anyone who claims a need from the government.  But if you are struggling and uninsured you are in the worst bucket – priced out of care you can afford, the only place you can get medical attention is in the emergency room environment – the most expensive, least comprehensive form of care.

Our healthcare system is so dysfunctional; the term ‘system’ is too generous to apply.  So why can’t we make fundamental change?  The answer lies in the chime of every slot machine, the spin of every roulette wheel, and the cacophony energy we call Las Vegas.  Americans demand the opportunity to have the best and we will not settle for anything less.  We do not require that everyone actually get the best healthcare so long as at least some of us have the chance.  Actually, we rather like that it is not universally available; access to healthcare has become another way to reward the ‘haves’ and condemn the ‘have-nots’.  We don’t care that the most expensive healthcare system in the world ranks a middling eighth in terms of quality among industrial nations or that we lag Cuba in life expectancy.  Averages do not excite our imagination. We like a hierarchical system because we each believe that we are smart enough or special enough or just plain lucky enough, to rise to its top.  Having a shot at phenomenal care for the few trumps care that is merely good care for all.

At one seminar I attended a nurse turned architect presented a sophisticated medication dispensing system that involved computer tags on individual medications, expensive distribution stations and patient banding.  It was a well conceived system with demonstrated improvements in patient safety.  At one point in the presentation she lowered her voice and whispered. “Two babies at XXYY Children’s Hospital died due to medication errors. These children could have been saved with this system; you cannot put a price on human life.”  The crowd hushed out of respect for the lost children.  I envisioned an ad campaign for this system based upon these two children and some philanthropist rising to donate a cool million or so to implement in a hospital in their honor.  The deceased infants give a human face to the problem. 

But no one asked the opposing question, which is, how many children could be saved by allocating those resources for inoculations or nutrition or wellness?  Could we save two, or twenty, or two hundred?  The question of statistical lives saved is mute before a pair of flesh and blood babies that we can identify.

And so we chug along, thrilled by the whizz-bang technology that our healthcare system offers, heedless of the simple math it takes to determine that healthcare system pays out a weird set of odds.  There are the lucky few who can have it all – like the star gambler the casinos promote.  But for most of us the healthcare system delivers less value than we deserve.  We walk away from the casino measurably poorer.

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In The Moment

On a raised meadow overlooking the Gulf of Gonave outside of Grand Goave, Haiti, a singular moment washed over me; a thunderous wave of euphoria.  I have never experienced a slice of time fueled with such intensity. It filled me with well-being, purpose and elation; it left me light headed, breathless and completely satisfied.  Through the rest of that day similar sparks of awareness flashed through me, aftershocks of bliss.  As a proponent of the tenet that an unexamined life is not worth living, I wanted to know why this occurred.  As a creature who solicits positive sensation, I wanted to know how I could make this happen again.

We have all heard the phrase, ‘being in the moment’.  Therapists, talk show hosts, and twelve step groups tout the benefits of a centered presence as a strategy for greater self-understanding and contentment.  For most of my life the concept eluded me.  I considered being in the moment a static state of passive meditation, while I am a person of action.  I have to do things. When guests come to dinner I get up after the meal is over and wash the dishes; too antsy to simply sit and talk.  My actions are always purposeful, future oriented.  I am not adroit at being in the present. 

About ten years ago a friend recommended The Experience of Buddhism.  The book contains a beautiful passage of an elderly woman weaving high on a Tibetan mountain. She is absorbed by her task yet not burdened by it. Her movements fulfill the requirements of weaving yet her spirit is detached from the specifics.  The passage has stayed with me – a correlation of action and mindfulness that made me consider if perhaps being active and being in the moment are not mutually exclusive.

Bikram yoga calls itself a moving meditation, though the meditative aspects are not evident for the first hundred classes or so, when the struggle against the heat is the sole occupation of your mind.  In the beginning what keeps you coming back is not what transpires during class, but how wonderful you feel afterwards.  At some point you make peace with the heat, at least momentarily, and you open up to the potential for a meditative complement to the strenuous poses.  Bikram is a ritual; the same postures in the same sequence with the same instructor format every class.  Over time you internalize the ritual, your body performs from motor memory, or even better, motor memory triggers the body to new depths, while the mind explores its own yoga journey.

Towards the end of every Bikram class is camel pose, the deepest back bend from kneeling position. My back makes a 360 degree bend; my eyes look at the floor beneath me. The only measure of my effort in camel is how dizzy I am when I come back straight. Dizziness defines effort.  One day, about eight months into my practice, I came of out camel with bees buzzing around my head, I slid round to sabasana and the moment I hit the floor I was eight years old on a summer night, pinching the juice of the snap dragon flowers that lined the side walk of our house.  The scent of the flowers, the touch of their hairy stems, the trace of wind cooling my cheek after a hot day, the child heart beating up in anticipation of the fluid squirt.  I was transformed to a place and time I had not recalled in almost fifty years.

Although I have tried to recapture the snap dragons on subsequent camel poses, that specific experience has never returned.  However, other modes of mindfulness take place during yoga in regular, if unpredictable, ways. Sometimes I have moments when the physical nature of the pose we are doing fills my brain until there is no differentiation between the body and the mind.  Other times an entire posture takes place without registering with me. I complete the moves but my mind is independent of the action.  Not because I am worrying about a problem at work or the heat, but because my mind is blank, suspended in the studio, held apart from the physical acts of my body.  At this point I do not have control the fusions and dissociations of my body and my mind, deep the yoga penetrates my being.

Back to Haiti.  In my three trips there I often feel ‘in the moment’ and strive to understand why.  The obvious reason is that I am in a heightened state of awareness when I am in Haiti. The place is so different from anywhere I have ever been, it makes sense that a ‘moment’ in Haiti is more compelling than a ‘moment’ in the US, where I have lived through billions of moments. Also when I go to Haiti I am on vacation, and we all tend to elevate our vacation moments as superior to everyday moments at home.  True, Haiti lacks many of the traditional trappings of vacation, like luxury surroundings or great food, or even cold drinks and hot water.  Still, some vacation components remain and may actually be stronger there. When I am in Haiti I give up all control. I cannot speak the language, I travel with a group leader who makes key decisions, I have no agenda.  If I am able to do useful work, great, but if not, I shrug my shoulders and acknowledge I’m in Haiti. I have never experienced less stress than I do in Haiti.  And when a mind is not flooded with stress, the opportunity for mindfulness increases.

These contributing factors are relevant but by themselves cannot account for the sheer number of ‘in the moment’ experiences I have in Haiti.  Those I attribute to the magic of the place.  Haitians don’t have much of anything, and that includes stress.  Once you give up the expectations of a Westerner hell bent on ‘doing something’ and give up your covert annoyance at people we term lazy, you understand that the parameters by which Haitians live their lives are completely different than ours. “Lazy’ is not a relevant term in Haiti. Haitians live in the moment pretty much all the time.  They have so little experience in controlling their destiny, the idea of shaping their future, so dear to us, is not part of their world view.  When bad things come their way, like earthquakes, hurricanes and cholera, they suffer and they cope.   When good things come their way, like white guys with food and houses, they accept.  When work presents itself, they do it, but they don’t seek it out, they don’t have preconceived ideas of ‘how things ought to be’.  It is not a winning attitude for advancement in a global economy, but it certainly doesn’t generate stress.

So on that beautiful, hot day, walking the site of the Be Like Brit orphanage with an entourage of Haitians showing us the extents of the property, I experienced an intense sense of the moment. I could not have welcomed it without my introductory experiences through Buddhism and yoga, nor could I have found it in our ‘go and do’ culture.  But the synergy of the exotic place, the release from stress, and the wonderful prospects of what this orphanage could be as seen through my architect’s eye combusted.  I was swept by an unparalleled flash of excitement balanced by an equally calm awareness that everything was ‘right’.

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The Awkward Pose

Awkward pose is a sequence of three yoga positions that increase focus and build leg strength by shifting the body’s center of gravity out from under our feet.  The objective is to achieve balance without stability.  As a Bikram yoga practitioner I have performed it hundreds of times.  Unlike other yoga postures, awkward pose never feels ‘right’.  The tension of my haunches hovering over empty space, supporting the mass of my core, countered only by the spindly tension of outstretched arms, never feels comfortable.  In time I have learned to strike the pose with increasing depth and steady breath, but the act of balancing contradictory tension requires constant diligence.  Awkward pose is the metaphor for my life.

This blog is about opposing tension everywhere in our world, and my attempt to find balance through understanding that opposition.  The decision to blog grew out of my experiences working in Haiti.  Friends and family sought out my stories of this country, so enchanting and so damned.  After my third visit I realized that Haiti had settled into a permanent corner of my psyche.  It became a benchmark against the everyday habits of my abundant life.  As an upper middle class American white male, I have more choice in how I conduct my life than most anyone in the world, yet I am so often riddled with anxiety and doubt.  In Haiti I witnessed many people of scant opportunity who lead lives of meaning and grace.  Call it fortitude or resignation, their accord with a world of scarcity highlights the arbitrary, indulgent folly of American society. 

I have no desire to live as a Haitian; I am neither saint nor missionary and it would be disingenuous for me to pretend at being poor.  But having witnessed the patience, the endurance, the sense of family and community, and the immediate vitality that permeates Haiti, I realize how much Americans have forfeited in our dogged pursuit of acquiring stuff.  Haiti is dysfunctional and unbalanced, but so is the United States.  The poorest and richest countries in the Western Hemisphere are tottering in a deep awkward pose.  Somewhere in the vast expanse between these two worlds, lies balance.

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